Vita, amore e musica. La mia vita e la mia anima.

30.6.06

2:24 PM

The current mood of eclectically_yours at www.imood.com

Ah yes, I went driving yesterday. RUN AWAY! hahaha As soon as Mom and I switch seats, it started pouring rain. No fear, however. Despite the fact that I am a new driver, I did well. I think I got the parking lot down. haha. It's time for the road now, almost. The van was alright. It's hard to get it into gear, because I wasn't used to it but you know, I did well. I'm getting the hang of it. I know! Aren't you proud of me? tehehehe

Oh yeah, Driver's Ed. starts next week. :-p w00t. If I get a 7:00 AM driving time, I'm going to flip bananas. Gah, I'm comatose in the morning!

27.6.06

4:51 PM

Ah yes, after I woke up late and forgetting that I was going to go get my permit, I researched audition requirements for music schools at various colleges. It got me thinnking, "Wow, this is really happening. I'm going off into the world in one year, by myself. How in the world am I going to be able to find the right school and major for me and later find a career?" Dear Lord, it's all so confusing. I realize that once school starts, there is going to be a plethora of things to do that are not college-oriented, which is why I started my search last year. I'm really beginning to explore now. By explore, I mean search through my thoughts and feelings about school and trying to sort out what I want in a school and what is possible. Believe me, all of this is more frightening than I ever would have imagined. I know I can do this but there are so many infernal "What if's?"hoping through my mind. It's not quite self-doubt I suppose. For heaven's sake, I know I have so much talent and potential to offer that I have not even begun to tap into half of it. I know I will be ready. The trouble is, how am I going to get there. I suppose this is what senior year is about; getting to where you want to go and preparing for the first leap into the adult world.

All this thinking and planning has gotten me into a state of reflection. I am mature enough to now realize that some things need to change. If I could just contorl a few things, I would be fantastic.
1.) Watch the temper. No boss, or professor for that matter, is going to want some kid freaking out over the littlest things. I need to remain calm, cool, and collected. I have been working on this and I am beginning to see a world of improvement. Good. I have to continue to work on this then.

2.) Work on my vocabulary. In other words, watch the language. Certainly, I don't swear like a drunken sailor each and every moment of my life but I do have a tendency to express my agitation or frustration in words that are not suitable for a civilized, sweet gal like myself. Nor is it beneficial or those around me to hear.

3.) Get some self-confidence. Note to self: Whenever something does not go according to plan, especially auditions or exams, try not to beat myself up over it and go ino a state of self-pity. Nobody likes an emo. I am not a terrible person in the least bit. I need to show people what I have to offer and just "chill". I am a beautiful young women with so much potential. No reason to hide it.

4.) Have faith. I need to reconnect myself with God. I need to regain his trust and wisdom. At Kevin's graduation party, his family was so into God and Jesus and thanked him for everything. Corny as it sounds, they knew that all the good things that came their way resulted from a trust in God that everything will be ok. I could use that sort of spiritual optimism. not only would it make me feel better on a daily basis, but it will also give me closure for the future.

So there you have it folks. Four things I shall be working on. I'm not changing. I'm growing as a person. I'm seeing myself become a better person by building off all the fantastic, wonderfully gorgeous things that me make such a joy to be with.

24.6.06

6:49 PM

So, this weekend was filled with alumni, grad parties, grad ceremonies, and, of coarse, lots of fun. :-D On Thursday, Kevin came over for a little bit and we chilled at STarbuck's and Central Park. 'Twas lovely. I then went to Proctor's to play for our school's graduation with our orchestra. A long evening but a pleasant and "heart-warming" one. It was kind of strange seeing all of my Senior friends turn into an alumnus one-by-one. I got to go to another ceremony, Kevin's, except this time I got to sit proudly with his family as he received his "diploma". (They actually give you a blank leather bound folder an doyu have to pick up your diploma later.) WE returned to Kevin's place, had some banana foster cake (yum!), and watched the Mets game. Nathan (his brother), Kevin, and I love making fun of the Snake's on a plan music. hahahahaha And finally, today my family and I went to Kevin's party and met the rest of the family. Lots of bocce ball, volleyball, food, fun, talk, presents for Kevin(He liked the mini-fridge we got him. Poor Kevin didn't win the one at After-Prom so we got him one as compensation.), and a family blue-grass band; composed of Kevin's Dad, Uncles, Grandfather, and cousins. Kevin and I went party-hopping for a little bit. haha I love Voorheesville people, but especially Kevin. <3 His mother was amazed at how well both of our families got along so well. She said it was scary. Mom thinks she's alluding to the fact that perhaps, someday Kevin and I might get closer and whatever. Dad doesn't think so and just mentioned that perhaps she meant thtat not everyone fits in. Whatever her remark menat, I'm glad that this day was a good time for all, including myself. Although Kevin and I saw each other three days in a row, I still wish I stayed longer. Kevin wanted to chill with his relatives ffrom Alabama, whom he doesn't see too often. Well, I'll see him soon.

CONGRATULATIONS CLASS OF '06!

21.6.06

8:13 PM

I am officially.....

A SENIOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yes, I am so excited.

Regents scores:
English: 95
Spanish: 100
And I passed the Math B, not sure what I got specifically but I kknow I did my best. *nods*
History was easy as pie. It went well. (I hope.)
Chem. was alright. I think I did well.

w00t. Now, it is time for some well-deserved relaxation. Sssssummmmmmeeeeeeeerrrrrrr. <3

19.6.06

10:46 PM

HAha I love the 25th Annual Putnam County Spelling Bee. That is a fantastic show.

I've been getting in touch with my theatrical roots lately by watching clips of shows on youtube and googlevideo. Ah, my life is now compltete knowing that I watched the finale of Les Misérables in Spanish. :-D lol

only two more exams (Chem and US History) and then I'm a SENIOR!

Ah, how sweet does that sound? All the hard work is paying off. Huzzah!

17.6.06

12:16 AM

I also passedt the Math B. Therefore, I'm getting an advanced regents diploma since I passed the Spanish regents. Life is actually pretty good right now despite 12 hours of exams. >.< And I have six more to go. Ah, well Chem should be ok and I should be more than prepared for U.S. History.

weeee. Thank the Lord for helping me get through this and for the weekend! Huzzah!

13.6.06

8:34 PM

I passed my Math final with a C and have a C for the course. Thank you, God! Hallelujah!

All in all, things are beginning to work out nicely...so far. Let's hope all the other exams go well.

9.6.06

7:37 PM

haha. I just love having my family tell me all the things that's "wrong" with me. Fie. w/e.

10:24 AM

I survived an English balloon, despite my public speaking anxiety, my Math final, despite my lack of Math skills and anxiety, and a Chem test, lots of stress and anxiety too.

Oi. LAST REGULAR DAY OF CLASSES!! <3 woo
but now there's more finals and a ton of Regents. >.< Ew.

APUSH = best class, ever. Seriously, I'm going to miss it, but not the hw and tests. haha

6.6.06

5:41 PM

I got a 98 on my All-State/NYSSMA solo. I'm happy but I really wanted to get a 100 so I could go to All-State. Well, it's insanely difficult to be perfect, especially such a hard operatic aria. however, I'm definitely qualified for Area-All-State. w00t

Oh man. Homework much? Dx Ughhhh. Aaaaaah. Finals this week to and quadruple duty of Regents exams. The last three weeks of school are going to be ever so much fun. :-p Oi. Must get back to work now. Ciao!

4.6.06

4:30 PM

the end of the year sucks. I'm so screwed. There's too much shit to do.

HELP!!!!!!!!!!!

3.6.06

9:02 PM

Oh the randomness...
Vocal All-State audition/NYSSMA went quite well. I definitely got into Area-All-State at least. w00t.

Lots of homework and exams as we come into the home stretch, people. Oi, I'm going to be stressed for two more weeks and then I'm free...and working. :p Oh well, I get money and hopefully the job'll be fun.

Back to Chem homework. Ciao, belleza!

1.6.06

1:11 AM

...take quizzes on blogger, especially when you're stuck on a math problem. Oi vey. O_O Need. Sleep. lol
Anyways, on with the quizzes.

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